My Infertility A to Z's

A. Age when you started TTC:  B:  33; me(J):  26.  We got married 5/18/03; I was on BCP for over a year--went off in the summer of '05.  We've been on this journey for 6+ years.  I think I initially signed up for twoweekwait in '04...temped, OPT'ed...it's wasn't until 2006 that I started using fertilityfriend as well.  It was in 2008-9 that we found out about B.  It's been 1-2 years to be ready physically and emotionally for IVF.  During that time, my SIL (who got married 2 years after we did) have had 3 children; and my BIL have had two children who are now almost in double-digits!

B.  Baby Dancing or Sex:  SEX :)  

C.  Children wanted:  When we were dating, we both had agreed we wanted two kids--a boy and a girl.  In fact we had it all figured out...haha...(the best laid plans...) that if we had a girl first, and our second was a boy...we were done.  If we had a boy first and the second was a girl..done.  If we had a boy, then another boy...we were done (we wouldn't try for a third just in case we ended up with 3 boys)..if we had a girl, and then another girl...we'd try once more for a boy...Of course, now, we'd be happy with one healthy child!  We're no longer picky!!  

**Our current joke though is for an extra $1000 we can choose what we want...haha...gotta have a little fun with this stuff or it will seriously drive us both mad!!!

D.  Dogs/Cats:  One dog--the best child substitute right now :)

E.  Essential Oils/Vitamins/Snake Oils:  Just one pre-natal currently.  Be on BCP my next CD 3 in prep. for H20 u/s

F.  Fertility Meds I have taken: None yet.

G.  Gain:  Weight  (each month that goes by...it just does something to ya), stress, a lot of heartache for wanting something I cannot have.  Sadness when someone close to  me announces their pregnancy instead of happiness for them.  Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic for them, it's just the feeling of "when will it be my turn...and why is everything got to be so hard for us!"  Just sucks that's all...

H.  HSG (Hystosalpingogram):  Had to look that up; haven't had any procedure yet except they did look at my overies with the probing thingy the last time I was there.  

I. Infertile Pet Peeves:  People who resort to abortion as their first choice when they conceive a child.  Insurance companies who will cover the abortion 100% but anything for fertility for medical reasons or otherwise, 0%.  Insensitivity about fertility issues; people who abuse their children that we would give anything for ourselves...wondering what is the lesson that God is trying to give with what He allows to happen and what He doesn't... 

J.  Job title: Teacher; full-time student currently

K.  Kid's names you're afraid will be taken by the time you use them:  Kirsten and Zachary...both already taken by friends/relatives...we don't talk about kid names anymore...nothing to talk about until there's something to talk about...

L:  Length of time trying to conceive:  6 years...have no idea the exact date anymore..nor do I care..too long to think about.  

M.  Miscarriages:  None.  I have never been pregnant, not even a hint.  However, I can't even imagine the pain and heartache that goes through so many that lose a child whether at 6 weeks or 36 weeks...I just can't even imagine!  My heart truly goes out to any of you who fit into that category.  

N.  Number of times you switched OB/GYNs, REs, FSs:  technically 2.  We had a consult about a year ago with the first guy.  Not impressed.  We had another consult with the second RE--really nice, knowledgeable, uses and goes to conferences on the latest technologies, very professional, hubby liked the pictures of kids and families on the wall (major plus for us!)...and it's less money than the first with more options available (also major plus!).  So, we're with number 2.  More on the REs later, I'm sure!

O. Ovarian quality.  Good, I think.  With the probe thingy they saw 23 follicles the last time I was there.  I think all's good with ovarian quality--they will check more in-depth with the H20 u/s--praying for no cysts!

P.  POAS or waiting for AF:  Probably will have a hard time not wanting to POAS after IVF #1...I haven't POAS for few years, as I know there is a slim to nil chance at being pregnant without help...but after IVF, it will be hard...we'll see!!

Q.  Quote from an obnoxious fertile:  Just relax, it will happen when it's supposed to happen!  Have you tried having sex every other day?  

R. ERRRRR!!!

S.  Sperm:  Sperm?  Normal...just blocked!!!!! :(  PESA needed and we're hoping there are lots of them at the sperm production center!!  

T.  Time you tried naturally:  A few years in there...we honestly had no idea and should have had a consult a lot earlier, but we just chocked it up to stress or not trying on the right days for a looong time!

U.  Uterus quality-I think okay, again I will probably know more after May's appt.  

V.  Vagina---:)

W.  What baby stuff do you already have:  not really much of anything.  We have room for him/her....we're just waiting for a baby to fill it :)

X:  X-tra, XX-tra, read all about it, how many people know about your crazy TTC journey:  Well, technically no one really knows what we're doing (IVF)...BUUTTT...I'm pretty sure my mom has her suspicions as does my MIL...and of course, it's kinda obvious that we don't have kids after almost 8 years of marriage...something's up :(  

Y.  Yearly exam:  Yep...every year...I'm good to go:)

Z.  Zits:  That's what make-up was invented, right?  

Thanks Lindsay and Lisa...this was cathartic!   

Also...thank you, my 5 followers, thanks for following me:)  I don't claim to be much of a writer, and I usually don't have a lot of interesting things to say...but it's nice to know there's a support network out there who have been through this infertility stuff...I can't really talk to my family or friends, they can support me, but they have never gone through it...anyhoo...it's just nice!  Thanks :)  Have a great Tuesday!!  J